I'm sitting on a plane getting ready to go to Paris. How surreal is that? I can't believe I have been able to travel so much in so little time. I feel so blessed to be able to do this. As much as I want to see you (& words can not define just how much) I am so glad I did this. It was such a huge leap of faith for me, & so far, it has turned out to be the single most adventurous thing l have ever done. Although I can't believe I'm telling you this, I have to admit something. I hate being in unfamiliar places/ situations by myself. I know that I can come off as a strong, go-getter personality, but it really scares me to face unfamiliar things on my own. & this trip is really pushing my boundaries. I have already had to face some pretty unfamiliar situations by myself & I can't say that it doesn't make me proud. I hope that there is not a huge change in me when I come back but I also surely hope that I become more carefree. I can't wait to travel the world with you, baby. I know that that was so random and out of the blue but it is so true. I am already planning some of these trips in my head, so that I won't have to tell you about it, you will have experienced it for yourself. God! This experience would be beyond perfect if you we're here with me. I can't help but picture you next to me in everything I do. I can not wait to see you again baby!
It's been a few days since you've heard me say this but STORY TIME; you know how I've been telling you about Jessie and Daniel, and how the whole CIMBA program thinks that if Jessie and I did not have boyfriends,all shit would break loose?! Well even if I didn't tell you that, now you know... Anyway, neither Evan nor Daniel are traveling with us this week. Well, they were with us in Munich but that's about it. & last night she admitted to me just how much she misses Daniel and just how much she wishes that he was traveling with us this week. Blah blah blah. Sure, I think it would be great if they were with us this week, because we all have soooo much fun together, but I would not go out of my way to say that I miss him (him as in Evan) . It's so weird to think how different people are handleing this whole long distance thing! Yes, its nice to be noticed! But that's about it (I'm just being honest with you) when she says she likes him a lot because he is so different than anyone she has ever met. I think, "that's exactly what I thought of Brian" but, since I can't admit this to you over Skype here is how I am feeling about this whole thing: no, the situation between me and Evan is not the same as that of Jessie and Daniel. We just got really close really quick with zero intentions about anything! Yes, we like to hang out but not in the same way they do. Quite frankly, neither one of us care about what everyone else thinks, I think he is a great guy, but he also annoys the crap out of me sometimes. He is way to relaxed about everything and I can not stand it. So in a nutshell, I made a really good guy friend here (SURPRISE!!!!& I know you say people don't just want to be friends with me, but until he does/says something that makes me believe otherwise, I am going to stick with that). People can take it which ever way they like, but I have my mind set on one person. The one person that makes my world spin. The one person I can't get out of my head no matter how hard I try, and the one person I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with. I have my mind set on you, Brian Andrew Geissler :)

I know that was a lot of rambling & me being honest, but there it is.


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